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Seeking My Voice - Video

6/30/2014

 

 Seeking My Voice - Audio

6/30/2014

 
Seeking My Voice ... My Lover.

That character who hesitates in raw twilight.

I want to cup his obscure knowledge into my hands.

I want to scoop him like spring ... and sip.

I want to sculpt his hidden meanings into words.

I want to probe his language, feel his tongue ... unwrap preserving veneers.

Sliding poetic fingers into me, he empowers my spirit to recite what his hands help create.

I yield to his greatness with difficult ease.

He enters me again, and again, as sacred lyrics swim.

His name is on my sigh.

So now, and through the remainder of our days, when we grab for our own pen ... I will sense the stroke of him.

The taste, the sight, the sound of me will linger.

And our hands, our thoughts, will reach.

© brooke brookreson





All things Work For Good ... Even Blown Tires

2/19/2014

 
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I knew it was going to blow at any moment ... I knew I was treading dangerously ... figuratively, and literally.

I asked for mercy, yesterday, only to have it blow up in my face today ... figuratively, and literally.

But I am not sad ... the tears from yesterday are smiles today.
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I thank God I made it to the bank in time to keep the wolves away from the door, so to speak, and I thank God my daughter wasn't with me ... I thank God for CEM, and all the no-strings Love there ... I thank God for all the doors He is opening, and for all the Doors He is slamming shut ... I thank God for my Guardian Angels ... I thank God for all He is revealing ... and I thank God for His Perfect Timing.

Seriously, not only did He make a bold proclamation Himself, loud and clear, at the best most Perfect Time for a proclamation to be made ...
He helped me make a bold proclamation as well: 

I knew it was going to blow. At any moment. And I warned. And, guess what, it blew.
I knew it was dangerous. At every moment. And I warned. And, guess what, it was dangerous.

I asked for mercy, yesterday, asked for just a little bit of time ... please let me fix this tire ... and I didn't get it.

Come to find out .... had I gotten it, it would NOT have been in my best interest at all.

Instead, I got a way better "mercy" today ... a mercy that I can, and will, take to the bank.
 
And, oddly enough, the danger of a blown tire protected me from a far more dangerous danger ... a dangerous "danger" that I can, and will, also, take to the bank.

God's Timing really IS perfect ... He knows what He is doing ... All things Work for the Good, and I do mean ALL THINGS ... all things.

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Give thanks to God for He is Good ... He, who alone, doeth Great Works ... His kindness shall always endure ... His mercy never fails.

Amen.
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My Great-Aunt B

2/17/2014

 
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I would like to tell y'all about my fondest memory of Great-Aunt Bea.

If you know me from my old blog, and my previous online presence, you know that I am a big advocate of holistic health.  Aunt Bea was the first one to introduce me to home remedies ... and I've been fascinated ever since. She taught me to have an open mind.

Bea was a petite lady, very poised, and easily admired for her gentle nature and kindness to all.  She was a dedicated Christian, and played the organ for years at her church. She spoke in a soothing whisper.

One mid-February day, about this time of year, not too long before she died, I went to visit her .... I had heard she was lonely and no one visited her much anymore.

Of course, it brightened up the cold, dreary day for her when her doorbell rang and she saw me grinning there. 

It brightened up the blah-day for my Self too.

While we were visiting, I kept taking in her small living room ... all the flowers, all the photographs, all the delicate figurines, all the lace and pink accents ... but I was always drawn to her organ.

I asked Aunt Bea if she would play for me.

She was so happy making her way to the majestic, old organ and sitting down at it, and waiting for it to warm up ... she patted the small space next to her on the bench, and motioned for me to come join her.

Aunt Bea was already going into a flowy introduction to an old, moving gospel song when I noticed a translucent, ivory-colored floppy-looking thing draped over the shelf part of the organ that holds the sheet music .... what in the world!?!? 

"Aunt Bea? What is that."

She nodded her head up and down, smiling with her eyes happy-wide, and exclaimed, waving it in the air, "Oh yes! Isn't it wonderful? It really works. But I doubt it would help you though. You don't have an organ."

"What is it."

Aunt Bea went on to describe how she was walking her little Pomeranian through the park across the street a few months ago, and found a little squishy square packet on the ground. She put it in her pocket, and looked it over real good later when she got home and got Flossy fed. She recanted how the directions said to place it on the organ, and it would help prevent the spread of disease.

I could feel the tips of my ears pulsing ... my face had to have been so very red ... it was hot, and I was horrified.

"Aunt Bea I don't think that is what it is for. At all."

I will never forget the look on her face.

"Oh, no, sweet child, it is. Do you know I haven't had the flu all winter!"

I, literally, fainted.

Learning the Hard Way is Still Learning

2/7/2014

 
Each night before I close my eyes for the day, I thank God for all of the blessings, gifts, and miracles in my Life ... the ones
I am fully aware of, and the ones I am not aware of. 

He knows my needs before I even ask for them.

Every day I thank God for all of the many plans He has for me ... the plans He set in motion in the past, the plans He is executing right now in the present, and all the plans I know He must have for me in the future ... I thank Him for being in control, and I acknowledge that I believe everything happens for a Reason.

He knows my needs way, way better than I do.

I thank Him for the knowledge, and love, I have of/for His Word ... I ask Him to please let me help and serve others, for Him ... I ask Him to please use me however He sees fit ... I ask Him to please show me how best to do His Work.

I thank Him for His Holy Spirit, and I thank Him for my profession as a Christian ... I thank Him for helping me to resist temptation, and I thank Him for all of the many times He has protected me ... I thank Him for all the doors He opens for
me, and for all the doors He closes.  

I believe in Him, and I have enormous Faith in Him.

To a fault.

How is that possible? To believe, and to have Faith, to a fault?

I will answer that, and other profound things I have learned, in a moment.

You see, I have learned painful and valuable lessons recently ... I have been learning to learn the lessons I should have learned years ago, and the teacher God used to bring these powerful lessons to Light has proven over and over what a loving, strong pillar he is in my Life.

The pillar, this teacher, is the Man that I Love.

Until recently, and I hate to admit this, I have had somewhat of a self-righteous attitude towards him ... always making the claim that we needed each other to balance each other out because he was more carnally-minded whereas I was more spiritually-minded ... I needed him to be more street-smart, and he needed me to be closer to God.

He doesn't need me.

He is closer to God, and way more knowledgeable of God's ways, than he realizes ... way, way more than I realized.

Until recently. 

The Man surpasses me in dedication, logic, patience, work ethic ... he is a problem-solver, and a tireless worker ... he surpasses me as a friend, and as a leader ... he sees things I will never see, and understands things I will never understand ... he deserves, and has earned, the title Head of Household ... he surpasses me as a "doer" and a "thinker" ... and by "reason of use" he is able to discern the difference between bad/good, and danger/peace.

When it comes to the Word of God, he may not be able to quote scripture as well as I can, but the Man is chewing big chunks of meat whereas I am still sucking on milk ... yes, he has shown me just how spiritually immature I am.

We have a beautiful relationship ... he is my Best Friend ... he knows me, now, better than anyone else alive on this earth ... he knows the good, the bad, the beautiful, and the downright ugly ... and, bless his heart, he still loves me.

He is a very strong Man ... a faithful Man ... I am a handful, and I put him through the wringer.

The main problem we have is me.

From the very beginning, I told him that I needed protection from my own Self ... little did I know then just how true that really was.

Our problems stem from me being too loving, and too trusting ... not being able to discern people and situations ... being 
foolish, and naïve ... making bad choices and decisions ... not thinking clearly ... placing myself right-smack-dab in the middle of danger ...  and, to be blunt, putting my Life continually at risk.

Yes, I have a track record.

I can name three crucial incidences that God allowed ... identical in nature, yet each progressing more serious in nature  ... and while He didn't stop me from experiencing pain, and shame, He did save me from literal death ... yes, He allowed these things to happen to show me what could happen if/when I find myself in situations that I failed to control/discern from the outset.

After all these years, I still found myself in compromising/dangerous positions ... never having learned the lesson ... and this has created fear, tension, and turmoil in our relationship.

What was going to get my attention? Was there going to have to be a fourth incident? What would the outcome of THAT be? Was God eventually going to have to just use me as an ultimate example for others ... what NOT to do?

One day God would have every right to say, "Look kiddo, I protected you and saved you too many times to count. You just don't get it. Let me put us both out of misery. Next time you get yourself in that bind, I'm going to have to look the other way."

This Man has held up a mirror to me, and has shown me, just how much I take his Love, and God's Love, for granted ... he has shown me that I take his guidance and protection, and God's guidance and protection, for granted ... he has shown
me that I take my beliefs, and my Faith, for granted ... he has shown me that I take my blessings and gifts for granted ... he has shown me that I deny, and hide, and shift, and withhold ... he has shown me that I take my knowledge of the Word for granted.

Here are a few specific things I have learned ... THE HARD WAY:

I believe in Him, and I have enormous Faith in Him. To a fault. It is not enough to believe! It's not enough to have Faith! You have to do something; you have to prove it.  Belief and Faith that produces nothing is worth nothing.

FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD.  (James 2:14-26) "What Good is it, my friend, if someone says he has faith but does not have works? Can faith save him?  If someone is naked and destitute of daily food, and one of you says to
them, “Depart in peace, just believe, and be warmed and filled,” but you do not give them the things which are needed for the body, what Good does it do?  Thus also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead. You believe. Yes, you believe that there is one God. You do well to believe. But even the demons believe—and tremble!  Do you want to know, O foolish man, or not, that faith without works is useless? Do you see that faith works together with your works, and by work your faith is made perfect? You see then that a man is justified by his works, and not by his faith only? For as the body without the Holy Spirit is dead, so faith without works is dead also."

I should be teaching others by now, but I am not ... and I am still in need of being taught the very first basic principles of God's Word ... I am not ready for big chunks of meat ... I am child-like, and vulnerable ... must be able to walk away from 
any situation ... I have to possess the firm ability to say “no” when it is appropriate. I need to be more discerning about Good and Evil, and what is happening in my Life ... I must develop the ability, and wisdom, to follow a safer and steadier path. I need to learn "by reason of use" ... to learn how to become adept at practicing basic biblical principles ... to actually learn how to use my "mind" over my "heart" and learn how to recognize reasons for putting it into better use. Maybe ... just maybe ... these cautionary steps will prevent future disaster in my Life, and set the Man I Love a little more at ease.

I AM STILL A BABE; SPIRITUALLY IMMATURE. (Hebrews 5:12-14)  “For when the time you ought to be teachers, 
you need that one teach you again which be the first principles of the oracles of God; and are become such as have 
need of milk and not strong meat. For everyone that uses milk is unskillful in the word of righteousness: for he is 
a babe. But strong meat belongs to them that are of full age, even those who by reason of use have their senses 
exercised to discern both good and evil.”

I have learned that although I thank God every day for helping me resist temptation, I have the audacity to turn right around and tempt Him. I have learned that I have carelessly exposed myself, and I have unnecessarily placed myself in potentially
dangerous situations ... expecting the grace of God to keep me safe. And this is wrong! I need to be aware of, and remember, in order for God to protect me I must cooperate with Him and do my part. I have ignorantly “tested” Him by 
making Him prove His faithfulness to me over and over again ...when God has shown me countless times that He is faithful, and that He is with me. He has nothing to prove to me at this point. He has already proven. It is I who must now prove to Him that I am faithful, and with Him. 

I SHOULD NOT TEMPT GOD ANYMORE! (Luke 4:12) And Jesus answered, and said to him, "It has been said, You shall not tempt the Lord your God." 

I have learned that I have to gain true experience from life’s many choices ... there has to be genuine reflection in 
learning. Learning does not take place while we are performing an activity. Learning happens afterwards ... real learning takes place later ... when serious appreciation and contemplation can take place. I have learned to ask myself "What did I 
learn about/from this experience? How could I have done it differently? Will I do the same thing in the future?" I have learned there has to be reflection in order to prepare myself for future experiences. I have also learned that I need to reflect more on the Bible in relation to my experiences. I need to develop a much greater frame of reference. Growing in grace and 
knowledge requires constant comparison to the Bible in order to validate my learning. I have learned that God understands my current  “frame of reference” and He is there to help me during this painful  learning process. I have learned it doesn't need to be shameful to make mistakes, while growing, at our own paces, but I have also learned that only a fool would continue to ignore all the blessings and warnings associated with those lessons. I have learned that maturity doesn't come 
with age ...  it comes with acceptance of responsibility. And I am learning that spiritual maturity is marked by spiritual 
knowledge being put into action. I think I am ready to try chewing on some meat.

MAY I HEED THE CALL FOR MY OWN SAFETY AND SPIRITUAL GROWTH. (2 Timothy 3:14-15)  "But continue in 
the things which you have learned, and continue in the things which you have been assured of ... knowing of 
whom you have learned them."

Thank you God, my Father, and thank you to the Man I Love ... I know Who has a Real Hand in guiding and protecting me ... and I know Who is patiently teaching me all these things that have taken way too long to learn.
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